I feel like a mess, it’s neither good nor bad. I try to plan my week out and when the day comes, I do something to screw me up a little. Like today, I shouldn’t have had that frapuccino from Starbucks cause it messed up my stomach and I’ve had to go to the bathroom twice since. But alas, I’ve taken another shower and had time to work out a bit before leaving to the city for some dancing. I need to practice as much as I can cause the performance is tomorrow. I only have one shot of getting it right. I have to admit, the thought of performing in front of people is terrifying. But I have to do it to get better. If I can make it through the military then I can make it through this one. I’m glad we’ve had a really good instructor and coach. He really knows how to make sure we’re having fun out there and not take things so seriously. I honestly can’t wait to be done though.
Next time I’d like to perform as a couple though. I think that would be fun, to perform with another girl on stage. This was more like a footwork performance but I still wanted to do it because I knew it would help me get over my fears and anxiety. Tonight I hope to get some good dances and just let loose before tomorrow night’s big gig.