I feel like I’m back in the same spot as I was 6 months ago…this feeling of uncertainty hovering over me. I thought we made a lot of progress since then and yet I still feel so….uneasy. Why should I be scared if she decides to leave me? If anything, it would be a benefit. I don’t have to spend any money on her and I can save. I can spend more time to focus on myself and my goals. I don’t have to deal with all the BS of getting annoyed at stupid things and trying to meet crazy expectations that I never had to try to meet before. I’ve been accepted completely as I am before, and it was honestly a liberating feeling, even though I felt like I didn’t deserve it. That was my standard from then on, and yet here I am, with someone who doesn’t seem to accept me as I am and expects me to “step up” and be more. Maybe this is to force me to become that financially independent person as I need to be, yet it feels unnatural to try and “force” it. Anyway, I’m here overseas busting my ass at work for 12 hours every day in extreme humidity and blistering desert heat, and it’s annoying to me to have to worry about someone back at home when I should just be focusing on what I need to do here. All I asked was for her to text me when she got home…and I got nothing. My message was read but not acknowledged and haven’t heard anything since. I wonder what excuses I’ll hear now…I fucking hate this feeling. I just want to be over with it. Like if she’s really not happy with me or if I’m not up to her “standards” then let’s end it. Why can’t I end it myself? I shouldn’t have to be afraid. I guess I wanted to prove to her that I am committed and won’t just leave at any sign of disturbance of peace. That, and it’s her fucking birthday and god forbid I do anything to ruin it. I don’t want to be that guy so I’m trying my best to keep it cool. Is it that fucking hard to acknowledge one message and to send me a quick one when she got home? And I could see that she’s been active on FB throughout the night and she has seen my message so there’s really no way she was too busy to say anything back. This type of unpredictability pisses me off. If you’re in a relationship with someone, they should be the FIRST person you want to consider hearing back from and getting back to. I don’t know how long I can put up with this…pretty soon I’ll just say fuck it and leave…cause as much as I love this person, I don’t need to be dealing with these types of headaches on a consistent basis. It’s not healthy. And I know I’ve been treated better than this, and that’s what I deserve.
I haven’t posted anything since March 28th, so it’s almost been a month. A lot of things have happened then. And I wasn’t even thinking about posting tonight, I just couldn’t sleep. So far, things are going well. 2 of the bachata routines are wrapping up, the 3rd one is still rough and the Kizomba one is a bit delayed due to scheduling conflicts. Other than that, I’ve been really busy with dancing overall.
And the single life is good. I started talking to this girl early last week and we planned to meet in less than 2 weeks. I thought she was cool to talk to at first and she really likes me, according to how things have gone. However, I don’t feel ready to give up being single yet and I’m not really attracted to her enough to do that. And she seems to be getting the impression we’ll be in a relationship eventually. I want to let her know without hurting her feelings and also have our date and have a good time. It might be hard to do. Well, she did mention we can hang out the next day if things go well the first day. So I suppose I may not really need to tell her anything and we can just do what we wanted to do.
I keep telling myself I have to be really picky this time when it comes to being in the next relationship. I just can’t settle anymore. It makes me feel stuck and wanting more. I went to this all-day bachata event in NYC with workshops and partying all night and it was fun. I found myself meeting a lot of girls there, and while several were attractive, I did not even care to remember their names. I really just wanted to dance and get better. Of course that doesn’t mean I’d turn down a hook up, I just wouldn’t put forth a lot of effort to make it happen. I had plenty of girls asking me for dances, which was awesome too. I just wish my calves weren’t sore and that my feet weren’t killing me at the same time. I was really hurting afterwards. I even had a girl ask for my number towards the end. She was ok to dance with but she was kinda cute so why not.
As far as the quality of dances are concerned, I had a mix of good and ok ones. Of course I have to be realistic and know that most women aren’t advanced so I won’t always get those amazing dances, but I at least had some I would consider “amazing.” Speaking of amazing, there’s this one girl who I always see at bachata events in NYC, and she’s really fun to dance with because she never fails to make eye contact and is always smiling. My first dance with her that night was nothing short of amazing. It was more than I imagined it would be. She was very smooth, sensual, and thoroughly enjoyable from start to finish. I asked for a second dance an hour or so later on and while she was still the same with eye contact and smiling, the vibe just wasn’t the same somehow. Like the energy had dissipated for whatever reason. I find myself with this situation at times with other girls too. Like the first meeting/dance was great, then it wasn’t so the second time. I guess it’s sort of a life metaphor. You may feel enamored with someone at first, but once you get past that “honeymoon stage,” the spark is lost. For me, I’d like to find someone who I’ll always have that “spark” with. That would be really something.
And speaking of which, I do feel I’ve met that person, and that was the girl I met in Baltimore. I actually didn’t think much of our first dance, but she really enjoyed it that she came up to me for a second dance after. And THEN that’s when I started to really enjoy dancing with her, to the point where nothing I do could be wrong, even if I messed up, and every single moment we had on the dance floor was magical. I am kinda mad she got me feeling this way though, because I never got her contact info, not even her Facebook. Well, at least the good thing is I know what to look for now.
This weekend I just felt off during and after social dancing, but I realize it’s just what happens when one’s trying to improve. This is one of those things that just takes some time to master, and you just have to keep going no matter what. I can’t let anything discourage me. I also realized I haven’t even been dancing that long. I started dancing bachata around March 2013, but I was really on and off that year. I only went out and took lessons a handful of times. In 2014, I picked up dancing again around August, and was pretty consistent with taking lessons and social dancing until I left for basic in November. I was also on and off in 2015, where I danced once or twice around March, May, and then I took a bachata shines performance challenge in November and performed in December. I still wasn’t going out every weekend like I should’ve. It wasn’t until this past January where I really picked things up and took it to another level. And now it’s March 13th, so basically I’ve only been doing this on a regular basis for 2 and a half months. 2 and a half months more and I’m set to perform the 4 routines I’m learning. In conclusion, I’ve done so much the past couple of months that it literally has felt like 6 months or more. I can’t be down on myself like this when I’ve actually made a lot of progress since January. I learned a lot and improved a lot. I’ve made several friends and I got to dance with a lot of them this weekend, so I should be thankful that I’ve been able to do this. Because if I was still on and off like I have the past few years, I’d be that guy who just sits by himself and doesn’t really talk to anybody, or someone who’d prefer to stay home because it doesn’t feel worth it to travel a bit just to dance.
I have to look at the big picture. My problem is I’m too critical of myself sometimes. I understand I want to be really good right away, but I suppose it’s just not realistic to achieve greatness in a couple of months. It takes several, even years, to get to that level.
I also realize I still have insecurities that I need to address. One is that I don’t like looking at myself in the mirror, and to get better as a dancer, you have to look at yourself in the mirror at all times so you can see where you need to fix things and know what looks good and what doesn’t.
Another thought that’s been coming to mind lately…I know financially I’m not in the best situation, especially at my age. And while most people would expect me to focus on establishing a career for myself so I don’t have to worry about bills, here I am focusing on doing what I love instead. Why? Because screw people’s expectations. Life is short, and I have to enjoy every moment I’m given, you never know when it will be your last.
All my plans for this weekend have pretty much gone out the window. This weekend is the reserve duty one but since I ‘re-scheduled’ it I thought I didn’t have to come in. Apparently I was wrong. I still have to show up since I’m on my annual tour. Because of this I had to cancel my plans to practice with G and stay over the night in NYC. I wouldn’t have gotten any sleep and I would’ve been exhausted if I had gone through with it. Instead I went home and fell asleep for hours. I pretty much spent the majority of the day and night sleeping. It felt good to be tested yet I’m disappointed that I didn’t get to dance and experience staying overnight in New York for the first time.
I’m hoping to have the opportunity next week since I’ll actually have the weekend off then. Oh yeah I have to miss 2 rehearsals tomorrow as well, so this pretty much sucks.
Thursday night I got to hang out with J at her place, watching videos and practicing a bit, although we didn’t get much done with that. It did feel awkward only because bachata is an intimate dance. But it was our first time practicing so maybe next time it will get better. I slept on the pull out bed and it was actually pretty comfy as it was memory foam. Even though I told her she didn’t have to, she still woke up early when I did and made me a sandwich for breakfast, which was nice. The weather sucked so I had to drive through some crappy snow and around crappy drivers. And I was still an hour early to work.
I am regretting the fact I signed up for my annual tour in March because the timing couldn’t be any more inconvenient. Fuck. I can’t wait for these 2 weeks to be over.
I woke up earlier than I expected and I was just tired from not getting enough sleep. I barely made it to rehearsal on time, and I was exhausted after the first one, and had to push through the kizomba one. Luckily I had a cool partner that I enjoyed dancing with so it made it a lot easier. I went home afterwards, took a shower, and got ready to go to a social in Philly. I would’ve liked to be there by 9 to make it to the bachata lesson, but I was tired and had stuff to take care of at home before leaving so I didn’t get to leave till around about 9. I got there shortly after 10 and they had just started the social. I saw my friend R and got to dance a couple bachata songs with her to start off the night. Then I saw my new friend M that I met from the night before. It was cool to see her, and we got to dance several different songs. She’s a beginner but I still enjoyed my time with her. I liked her accent and soft touch. It was fun.
Then to my surprise, women started asking me to dance. Again. But there was one particular girl that I danced with throughout the night that I enjoyed my time the most. She asked me to dance some kizomba first and I told her I’m a beginner and don’t know much. Within the first few seconds I could tell she was a good follow. Turns out she’s been dancing her entire life, just not ballroom and latin dances, so she has a good idea on what to do. I asked her to dance some bachata with me after the kizomba and that’s what played next. I thought she was an amazing follow even though she never danced bachata on a regular basis. It was so much fun. And she’s really pretty too. After a few more songs, I asked for her facebook but she couldn’t find her name on my phone since she has a really common one, so I added her on Instagram instead. Oh well. She was definitely my favorite partner for the night, and every time a bachata song came on, she looked for me and I looked for her. It was pretty sweet.
Unfortunately, as much as I felt an attraction towards her, she’s too young for me. She told me she just turned 18 over a week ago and she’s still a junior in high school. Wow…I was shocked. That’s when I realized she was with her mom and probably her sister. I still danced with her a few more times after that, but I definitely toned things down a bit. If I was younger like 20-22, I’d probably have wanted to pursue her, but I’m a lot older and while I still feel young, it just feels wrong despite the fact she’s of legal age. I felt so disappointed though, cause she’s simply beautiful and it felt so good to dance with her. We had so much fun. But it is what it is. I’m not sure if I’ll ever see her again but I wouldn’t mind. At the same time it’s not like I should be pursuing anyone anyway. My focus is just to have fun.
There was another pretty girl who asked me to dance. She was taller, skinny, and had a nice body. She was fun too, although I felt like she moved around a bit too much that I couldn’t get her to follow the way I wanted her too. Surprisingly she still enjoyed dancing with me and didn’t mind dancing a few more songs later on. I’m not sure if she’s the same person but I could’ve sworn I asked her to dance at another studio a few weeks ago and she said no to me, which was why I never asked her to dance with me when I saw her tonight. And it’s also another reason I was surprised she came up to me to ask me to dance.
Overall, it was a really fun night. I ended up staying there till the end. And I’m still in disbelief over the fact that women have been coming up to me for dances this weekend. I wouldn’t mind having this trend continue. Makes my job easier as a guy haha. I don’t have to spend so much energy looking for girls to ask for a dance.
Later today I have another rehearsal early in the afternoon. Afterwards I hope to practice the material for Monday so I’m ready for it.
There’s still Tuesday. I haven’t decided whether I want to join the salsa team. As much as I’m resisting it, I feel like I might actually benefit a lot from it. I may just do it because J needs me and I want to help. I’m so fucking tired I need sleep. I still can’t get over this girl, it sucks. But call me crazy, I believe in zodiac signs. I’m a virgo and she’s an aquarius, according to her birthday. And I know we’re not compatible signs, but I still can’t help but feel that attraction. I swore after dating my ex of 4 years who’s also an aquarius that I’ll never date another girl whose sign is incompatible with mine cause I know it just doesn’t work, and if it does, it takes a lot of effort. My last 2 girlfriends were Taurus and Gemini, and we got along really well. There were really no issues. My new friend J is a cancer, and we get along great also. While I sense some attraction there, I think we’ll just stay friends, and that’s fine with me.
I’ve always been curious about having a Pisces girlfriend though. I know virgo’s are definitely compatible with them. I sorta dated one back when I was 20 but I was extremely immature. She had her own issues too, and I felt like whatever we had was never meant to be since she planned on going to a college that’s out of state. Oh yeah, I did go out on a date with a pisces girl almost 2 years ago, when I went back to the Philippines. I wasn’t particularly attracted to her, but we still had a connection. This girl was like in love with me though, and she constantly messaged me on facebook, even though I ignored the majority of them. I just didn’t think there’d be a future since we live so far apart and I don’t foresee myself going back there anytime soon.
And this time around, I’m gonna have to be extremely picky. I know exactly what I want. I want a real pretty girl I’m physically attracted to and have a great connection with on the dance floor. I want us to get along great just like I did with my 2 previous ex’s, and I want our signs to be compatible as well so I don’t have to worry about nonsense. I know she’s out there somewhere. Right now I’ll just focus on what I’ve been focusing on and I’m pretty sure she’ll turn up at some point. Life is good as it is and I intend to keep it that way.
I feel like I’ve finally made a REAL breakthrough. I went out social dancing tonight as usual at my new favorite spot and to my surprise, I actually had women come up to me right after a song ended, to ask me to dance. What world am I living in???? I was in total shock but very happy at the same time. All this practice has finally been paying off. I love dancing at this spot in PA. Almost every single girl I dance with enjoy dancing close with me. It could be because I’ve mostly danced in NYC and their style is a bit different from there that they think it’s refreshing. Or have I actually made real improvements in my dancing overall? I certainly felt like the man tonight. I danced with so many sexy girls, it was awesome. And the venue is just amazing. The floor is so big, there’s no way you can bump into another couple on the floor. Anyway, I’m still on a high from tonight and I can see it carrying on for the next few days. I suppose it’s a good trade off from going to Hawaii. Later tonight (it’s Saturday morning) is another social and I’m excited about it. I get to dance with my friend R and she’s so much fun. She likes to feel the music like I do and it gets pretty intense at times. I’d write more but I’m so tired that I need to sleep before the afternoon rehearsal. Peace
It seems like things have a funny way of coming together for me. I really wanted to go to this place tonight because they were gonna have live bachata but it was an hour drive and I was really feeling tired and sleepy, so I decided to stay local and go to my not-so-favorite spot on Thursdays. It turned out to be a blessing in disguise. I came in and they were at the tail end of the kizomba lessons. After the lessons ended, I danced kizomba with a couple of the girls who were there. The first one wasn’t bad, but the second one, even though I found her more attractive, she had really sweaty hands and her body was tilted really weird that it was kinda awkward dancing with her. Then I danced with this other girl, she was tall, skinny, brown hair, definitely pretty. I’ve never seen her before and so I thought she was kinda new to dancing. We did one salsa song then she gave me a hug and introduced herself. Few songs later, we danced some bachata and I could tell she knew her stuff but I didn’t really try to get too close with her since it was our first bachata. Later on I came up to her and asked if she knew kizomba and she said she was starting to learn. I told her I was as well, and then she revealed that she was into Zouk and that she’s actually an instructor for it. Did some small talk here and there and eventually added her on fb. The cool thing is I’ve always wanted to learn Zouk and incorporate aspects of it into my dances so I’m really glad we met and I hope we can do stuff in the future.
I realize that times are changing and nowadays most people use fb to communicate. And if I didn’t have it, I’m either a really private person, not keeping up with the times, or just plain weird/not normal. But anyway, I don’t really need to have anyone’s number anymore and I can just use fb to meet up with friends if I wanted. At the same time, it’s little to no risk for a girl to accept me as a friend cause if anything happens, she can simply block me. The good thing is I’m not that kind of guy, and I’m not thirsty like most guys. My focus for this year is mainly to have fun, even when I start school in April.
I know that when I get into a relationship, my weaknesses start to show. Like I start to spend more time with my girlfriend than anything or anyone else. I’d like to build a network of friends this time, and be more of a people person. While I was fine just being a loner for some time, I realize that no matter what, us humans are social creatures and we need others to survive. At the same time, when most girls already know me, they’ll be more comfortable dancing with me on an intimate level on the dance floor.
Oh yeah, I failed to mention that on Wednesday, I got a call from leadership asking me if I wanted to go on temporary duty to Hawaii from Friday to Monday. And unfortunately, even though I’ve never been to Hawaii, I had to say no because I would’ve missed a ton of practices. I also made plans to meet with J on Friday night, and go to E’s birthday social on Saturday so even though I have a pretty good excuse to miss it, I’d rather follow through on my original plans and maintain in good standing with them. I’d just hate to be seen as flakey and I know I’m not.
But next time, I’ll have to say yes and go wherever I’m asked to go. Hopefully it’s still Hawaii, although I’m fine with going to either Puerto Rico or Germany.
This weekend should be good. I’ve been getting a lot of practice lately and I hope to improve once again.
Feeling a bit overwhelmed right now. I just got asked to join a salsa team cause they need guys, but I’m not sure if I want to cause that would make it 5 teams and 5 routines for me to learn. I want to take on the challenge but a part of me says to be realistic about it.
At the same time I’m feeling a bit lonely. It would be nice to have some female affection. And I just broke up with my (ex)girlfriend earlier this week. She did nothing wrong, I just wanted to be single and not have to be tied down to anyone right now. I do wish I had someone to talk to about this stuff.
I suppose I’ll talk about some positives this past week and maybe that’ll make me feel a little better. I’ve been talking with J online about meeting up to dance since we met and we finally did this past Friday. I was a little iffy about the venue at first because I don’t like jersey but the lessons were actually pretty good and they had a good turnout. The male to female ratio was pretty even and there were more women towards the end. J made it towards the last half of the lesson and got her to join in. It felt good to see her, and that our plans came to fruition, especially since she drove 1.5 hours to get there, while it only took me about 15 minutes. I do have a problem when it comes to having friends with me and that is I tend to dance more with them than I do with other people on the floor. Normally if I’m by myself I walk around the room and look for girls to ask, but this time I stayed in our section and asked whoever I knew or was near. I’ll have to work on that.
She’s pretty cool but I realize I get bored if I dance with the same person repeatedly, cause it feels like they know all my moves and like the novelty of it wears off. Another thing I like is that we can talk and not really get bored. We ended up staying there till close to 2 and went to a nearby diner to eat before parting ways. We hung out for an hour and got to know some fairly intimate details about her.
The next day I had rehearsal for the first time on my 3rd bachata team and 1st kizomba one. The bachata one went well but I definitely need to practice to get the timing. The kizomba one went well also and I just need to listen to the music to get the timing down as well, but the moves are easy so far. Afterwards, I went home, ate, took a 15 minute nap, showered, and drove down to south jersey to meet with J again at another venue. My night didn’t go as well and I wasn’t feeling the people there either. I was dumb enough to dance through 5-6 songs straight and had my shirt drenched in sweat, which made me feel extremely uncomfortable, enough to make me go back outside to my car and change my shirt. After that, I wasn’t really motivated to dance with anyone anymore as it seemed like every time I wanted to ask someone to dance, someone else had gotten their attention before I did. I was turned off by that, and to top it off, there was this pretty girl who approached the dance floor and I thought she was looking to get asked, so I did, and she said no, she was looking for a friend. I felt deflated and angry after that, to be honest. Like fuck this bitch, I’m never gonna ask her again the next time, have fun dancing with these old dudes who suck.
The good thing about this night was that J had to leave early since she had to go somewhere early the next day. So shortly before midnight we left to go to Dunkin Donuts so she could use the bathroom since the one in the venue was out of order. On the way back we got pulled over right away, and it turns out she made a right turn on red when she wasn’t supposed to. Luckily the cop let us go since he just wanted to make sure she wasn’t drinking. We drove back to the venue, parked, and talked some more before parting ways.
The next day I woke up past noon, and barely got ready for the 3:30 rehearsal. It was a good session, although the new part of the routine I learned was difficult. I’m gonna have to practice this one a lot before being fully comfortable with it. And I’m still not even fully comfortable with the footwork from the week prior. The good thing is that next week we won’t be learning new material and we’ll have a chance to review everything and get some practice.
But the one thing I’m stressed about now is the fact that I got asked to join a salsa team, which would make it 5 routines that I’d have to memorize if I decide to do it. I told him I’ll think about it and on Tuesday I get a chance to observe the rehearsal and make my decision then.
Also, I have a job interview in the morning at 8 AM. It sounds like a possibly promising position since the hours work well with my dance schedule. Then I have to remember to collect my unemployment afterwards and drop off a package at the post office. Ugh, it’s going to be a fairly busy morning.
My life is just crazy right now. I’m even thinking about postponing going to school if this job goes well. I wouldn’t want to be a dickhead and work full time for not even 2 months only to leave because school started. And on top of that, I have my 2-week annual tour next month, which will make me unable to work my normal job if I did get it. More than likely I may have to reschedule it to accommodate them and to show that I’m taking the job seriously.
Fuck my life…
It’s been a real busy week. Last night I went to NYC to dance and it wasn’t as good as I expected, although I had ONE good memorable dance that I enjoyed and learned from, which is one positive I can take from it. This girl was close to my height (6’1″) and she had a pretty face and nice body. I could tell she was a good follow and I sensed a green light to get up close and intimate right from the start. I played around with some basic stuff and footwork at first just to get a feel for her and whenever the song dictated to get closer, I did. She responded real well, and I was able to do almost whatever I wanted. Of course, I messed up a few times, but she was cool with it, we just kept going cause she seemed to enjoy the closeness we had. And I love how we were looking in each other’s eyes the entire time till the end. I’d love to dance with her again the next time I see her, whatever her name is. Lol…Other than that, the party was kinda lame. They advertised that the bachata room would be open, but in reality they opened it super late and only for a short period of time, for maybe a bit more than an hour, which was real disappointing considering that I was there since 7 PM and did not leave until past 1 AM, and they stay open until 4. I’m decent at salsa but I cannot dance it for a long period of time. I just get super bored with it and I don’t want to be dancing in a fast pace the entire time. I enjoy dancing slow and close with my partner, and I have the option of going faster if I wanted to.
Then earlier today I came to the studio to assist in the make-up auditions. Unsurprisingly, this time it’s mostly guys who showed up and only 2 women did. I guess I got lucky last week. After the audition, I went to rehearsal for my 2nd bachata team. They introduced some new footwork and the partnerwork for the intro. It was really cool, I was impressed. I look forward to practicing and getting it down soon.
Tomorrow is Monday again and I’m actually nervous about this one, cause I still haven’t successfully mastered the last couple spins from last week. I’ll try to get up earlier than usual and practice my spins so I can get it down. I do look forward to being there so I can get my skills up further. And I can already tell it’s going to be a busy week.
My new friend J and I have started talking about meeting up on a weekend to dance. I’m really looking forward to it since we had a really good connection when we danced. And I hate to say this but I’m starting to think I’m not ready for my girlfriend to move up here in the summer. Nor do I think I’m ready to be more than a boyfriend to her. I hate to be the one to break things off cause I don’t want anyone’s feelings to be hurt. The crazy part is I have a flight booked to go see her by the end of the month. God damn. It’s going to be a crazy month.
I finally went to this place in Philly after watching it on FB for a while. I normally go to my favorite spot in NYC but figured I should change it up tonight so I did. I got there at 8:30 to take the beginner Argentine tango lessons. To my pleasant surprise, the women outnumbered the men! What a welcome sight to see, compared to what I’ve had to deal with in NJ/NYC recently. The lessons weren’t that great, but it was enough to get me started for the time being. I did meet this one girl who I felt was a really good follow, and we were chatting instantly. After the lessons were over, I asked her to save me a dance for later and she agreed.
The next lesson was either bachata or salsa and of course you know what I chose. They had 4 separate rooms for each type of dance, which is awesome, cause I wanted to dance mostly bachata. The lesson started out kinda beginner-like at first, but the instructor added some cool stuff that I could use later so that wasn’t bad. The women outnumbered the men again, but not by much. It was still good though. After the lessons, I had a few good dances in. I really feel like that private lesson I took has been paying off. I feel a significant difference in my confidence as a dancer and my leads as a whole. Tonight I was able to dance more in an intimate way with more women than I’ve had in a while.
What kinda sucks is the fact that I sweat so freakin much. It only takes 2 songs for me to start sweating profusely that I’m typically forced to retreat to the bathroom to wipe all the sweat off my head and neck. Anyway, at some point I took a break and sat outside the bachata room for a bit, and that’s when I saw J again and we started talking. Surprisingly it lasted a while and after I got to cool off and dried enough to start fresh, we went in to dance some bachata. It was really refreshing to be able to dance with her, because the connection we had was amazing. She was pretty receptive with my leads and let me do whatever I liked. Of course I messed up a few times but we just laughed it off. I could honestly say I had some of my best dances with her and I’m pretty much feeling high from it. I wish to have that experience again. I added her on FB so hopefully we can meet up on another weekend sometime and have more dances like that.
The rest of the night ended up with me getting more dances with her and a bunch of other people. We said our goodbyes around 1:45 and I danced a couple more songs before I left. I definitely felt like I had enough practice tonight, which is awesome. Usually when I leave NYC there’s a feeling of not being satisfied, whereas tonight I did get that feeling. Tonight was so good I thought it was a Saturday and tomorrow is Sunday, where I get to assist in the bachata team audition and go to a 2-hour rehearsal for another team right after.
But no, it’s still Saturday morning and I have Saturday night dancing to do in NYC, and I actually get to see some friends perform there, which is nice. I hope I get to dance some bachata with A, since we never actually social danced before, even though I’ve danced with her in lessons multiple times. It should be interesting and fun. I think we have a pretty good connection also. I can tell she wants to dance with me and she enjoys it. And she’s also very receptive and is an amazing follow herself.
I love NYC but man, the thirst is real over there. I used to think it was good to dance there, since I get to meet some experienced dancers, but some of them are kinda stuck up and won’t dance with anyone who aren’t “on their level.” It would be nice if they had a Kizomba room open too. They have a bachata room but it’s pretty small and sometimes they play some merengue which is lame. Anyway, I’ll do what I can and see what happens. Hopefully we can dance at least one song, and maybe even two would be great.
Overall, this week I’ve been dancing pretty much every day since Sunday. If it weren’t for the snowstorm I wouldn’t have taken Friday and Saturday off.
Anyway I’m done writing now. It’s about 4 AM and I’m totally beat. My restless mind needs some sleep, so I can hopefully function tomorrow. Oh yeah, I almost forgot. Those squats I’ve been doing have been paying off! I felt I had more balance and stability when doing dips and getting low when I dance real close. It was refreshing to be able to do that, so I suppose I’ll be stepping it up with my squats so I can be even better next time. And my treadmill finally came in so I’m going to be putting it up sometime this week so I can start running again and get that top PT score come July.