This is my last night as a civilian…I have to wake up at 4 AM to get ready to leave by 5:30. How I wish I had more time to dance, but this is it. I’ve waited 5 months to get to this point. I can say I should’ve been more proactive in the beginning with the lessons and practice, but it is what it is.
I’ve already packed most of my stuff and I’m pretty much ready to go. My parents want to take some things from my apartment because for some reason they don’t think it’s safe for me to leave them there since I have roommates. One of them is a friend of mine and the other stays in his room most of the time and minds his own business so there never has been any issues, which I’m thankful for.
All my bills have been set on auto and they will be paid every month, including my rent.
I’m not really too concerned with how I’m going to be when I go to basic training. Maybe the only thing that I’m concerned with is having enough time to shower and shave. I hope they don’t give us only 5 minutes to do BOTH, because shaving is a bitch for me and I get cuts on my face almost every single time, especially if I have to shave every single day.
Other than that, I’m good with whatever they want me to do. I’m all set, physically and mentally. I’ve been at the gym to keep up with my running, pushups and pullups. Not so much with the abs stuff but I’m still in pretty good shape regardless.
I know the air force creed, song, and the ranks/pay grades. I also know to use the reporting statement when spoken to. I’ve been trained to be ready and here I am. I suppose I’m just anxious to get it over with so I can start dancing again haha.
But best believe that I’m taking this whole thing very seriously. This is my career and I have to do well in it so I can have a comfortable future where paying bills is no longer a struggle.
Some people are going to mess around, and some will not know what to expect when they get there. I and some others trained with me will be ahead of the pack. We’ll be laughing at those guys.
I can’t stop thinking about these 2 hot girls I danced with on Saturday. I’m still on a high from that night. One girl is from Spain (Tanya or Tanja), average height, thin, with brown curls and fair skin. The way she feels and how she looks at me makes me want to melt. She’s really nice to me and never said no whenever I ask her to dance. There was even one time where I did ask and she said yes, then a minute into the song she stops to tell me that she has to go to catch her last train and that she was sorry. Then she gave me a hug and left. She could’ve told me no to begin with but she didn’t, and instead danced for a little while because she didn’t want to give the impression that she didn’t want to dance. I also know that she’s married cause I saw the ring in her finger so I do respect my boundaries and don’t go too far when we dance. She was cool enough to let me try some of the crazy moves we learned a week before and that was fun.
The other girl I think is American because of how she talks, but she’s real sexy too (Christina or Christine). A bit taller than T, a bit thicker in a way that she’s got curves but they’re just perfect that they don’t look exaggerated at all. She had amazing eyes and I loved the makeup she had on. She had the tendency to sweat more than the average girl and she even apologized to me for it, but of course I didn’t mind because I sweat a lot too. I actually thought it was hot that she sweat like that. We danced quite a few times, with the last one of her inviting me to dance salsa with her. I told her I’m not as good with salsa but she didn’t mind. She also entrusted me with holding her phone in my back pocket while we danced on the last 2 songs. I don’t think she’s married since I didn’t see any rings on her fingers, but she could have a boyfriend. Unfortunately I’ll be gone for 5-6 months so who knows if I’ll ever see her or T again.
And of course Irina still pops up in my head every now and then. I think I’m over it with her though. Just the fact that she’s an Aquarius is a dealbreaker for me because I know how much of a pain it was to deal with my ex who is the same sign. Compare that to another ex who’s a Taurus, who I got along with SO WELL that we never got into any arguments, EVER. Sure, there were some disagreements, as with all couples, but we never had a shouting match or any violent outbursts. I felt that I could trust her and felt that she trusted me.
I would like to date a sweet, sensitive girl who’s more in touch with her feelings, but know when to use logic when necessary. Either a Pisces, Cancer, or Scorpio would be ideal, but I also wouldn’t mind dating a Virgo, Capricorn, or Taurus. Any other sign is a complete deal breaker and I wouldn’t even attempt to try because I know it will be a difficult relationship. I’ve witnessed it in myself and other people I know and it doesn’t usually end well.
Alright, I’m going to practice some dancing on my own and off to bed I go for the big day tomorrow. I probably won’t be able to write again until around January, unless I somehow find time on the way to Texas to do so.
Wish me luck!